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I feel the light upon my skin,
Like finger-tips
Reminding me that night must end.***
One of the most profound sermons I have heard at Mars Hill was about how sadness, exile and sorrow were not the whole story.
God is on our side.
Tonight at 56 (the fifth and sixth ministry I volunteer with at Mars) we talked about how God was faithful to Abraham in rescuing him from the decision of sacrificing his only son Isaac.
It sort of feels like I’m at a point like where Abraham was; just on the verge of something huge and awfully scary and awfully painful.
But the scary, painful parts are not the whole story. The whole point of being in exile is you are searching for freedom, searching for that way out. This is how the night must end.
There’s something about sadness
that leaves us wanting more,
A sickness that breathes…
From holding on to letting go,
The change is like dying.
There’s nothing like exile to wake you up to all the crazy things God does in our lives.
I’ve had a really awful week. The details may not matter so much but in short, my heart was broken. I was sad and there’s just no way to fix that. Sadness tells us that there’s something else, or something is missing from the equation of our being. I think that what we do with the sadness that either makes or breaks the rest of our lives, essentially.
Even after both my parents had been diagnosed with cancer, people would always tell me that each day things will get a little better. I don’t think I really had any idea about how small “little” is. That’s the thing with sadness and illnesses like cancer, each day a snail-step is made in the direction of “Better”, but it may not be until you’ve already reached the other side that you take notice of how far you’ve made it because in one day you feel like you’ve never moved.
Teach me to create
A beautiful past
That makes you proud,
That makes you proud.
Teach me what I need to know
To be strong enough to let go…
Life happens. Bad things will never stop happening to us because of the Fall, and good things will never stop happening to those we think don’t deserve it. But God has another good work in store for us and it’s up to us to look over our past and see the beauty. Small moments, big moments, unexpected moments. When we come to appreciate those things in our past, God is able to kick it into high gear and really get the party started.
***lyrics from Night Must End, Sleeping at Last “Ghosts”
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